What if

It seems I need to learn the same lessons over an over at times. For the last two weeks I've been struggling with severe abdominal pain that comes and goes throughout the day. Along with it are other discomforts. It's made it quite difficult to take care of Braydon at times. I've once again found myself trying to figure it out. And I find myself in one way or another using the phrase "what if". It's one of the worst phrases we can possibly think. It's so open-ended, and it results in one not trusting in God.

This morning, I listened to Pastor Reimers again on sermonaudio.com, and I was once again challenged. I listened to a couple of sermons. They both really went together. The first was about God's grace to help in time of need. The second was about God's ability to help in time of need. The first was a challenge that God will give you the grace you need in service to others even when you might not like them. The second was a challenge concerning God's ability to help. He challenged me in the first that if we pray for grace we must not wait for it, but go on believing you have His grace for your circumstance.

Even though I don't know what's wrong with my stomach or when it will go away, I know i have God's grace to get through the struggles that are accompanying it. The Lord has already shown this by giving me a wonderful husband who has been willing to give his weekend taking care of Braydon so I could rest. I know that was a hard sacrifice. I'm so thankful for him.